Author Archives: Nicky

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When our Babies go to Heaven

Hello all!

Hope I find you all well x

NEWS

TOBY

Update on my baby toad!  I found him in my bedroom three nights running so I decided to create a toad home for him under a tree in my garden and have named him Toby!  He has gone from animal totem to official pet bless him.  I checked on him this morning and he is chilling in one of his water pools that I made out of an old compost bag!  What a rock and roll life I lead!  I know that my blogs are few and far between but I have to wait until my brain and hands work and I have inspiration for what subject to concentrate on!

MY SHORT STORY COLLECTION – THE CHILL LOUNGE

I don’t know if all of you saw on Facebook that I asked if you would be interested in reading my paranormal short stories that I have written.  They contain all sorts of adult inspirational stories with an underlying spiritual message or some form of education.  As I had a lovely response I will be getting them put on my website as soon as I know the best way to execute my new idea, each download will cost 75p.

HEAVEN CALLING

For all of you beautiful people who sent your stories in about how you have had proof of your loved one’s afterlife for my book, could I ask you to confirm if you still want them in the book as I will be submitting it mid September.  I will email you as well but thought I could save some energy lol!  Thanks to the ones who have already emailed!

WHEN OUR BABIES GO TO HEAVEN

Angel babies

I had to write about this, this week.  I have had a lot of synchronicity that has drawn me to this subject lately and of course the harrowing story of beautiful baby Charlie in the media.  I have been inspired by a beautiful girl emailing me that has been trying and failing to fall pregnant and an amazing story where two babies literally create a miracle to let their mums know that they are together and are thriving.

Nothing can prepare anyone for the loss of a baby or young child.  Babies lost through pregnancy whether it is a miscarriage, termination or born sleeping (hate the word stillborn)  brings so much trauma and grieving to mums and dads.  I have done countless readings where the pain is still there twenty years on.    It’s because they were never born that people assume there is no one to grieve so some  mums tend to hold the pain in, hardly mention it and try to move on, which is the worst thing to do.

They never leave us….

 

I can tell you now that I have communicated with hundreds of souls of babies that want to send love to their mums, dads and siblings.  They usually name their family and give either the date of their passing or when they were due.  They also describe whats been going on in their family household.  They basically prove their existence.  They are always holding the hands of a family member, so please know that they are looked after up in Heaven, they are never alone.   As soon as life is created in the womb, the silver esoteric cord from Heaven connects with the foetus delivering the soul energy.  This soul then goes back up on the silver cord to heaven if they don’t survive.  They have intelligence and can communicate and visit you in the afterlife.

How do I know this?

SILVER CORD

I was doing a evening of mediumship in Shoebury when a lady came up to me and showed me a picture of her beautiful baby girl that had been born sleeping.  The reason she showed me the picture was because there was a silver white line coming from the babies tummy rising up into the air.  She wanted to ask me what it was.  I, to be honest had no clue.

So I told her I would ask my guide Julianus later and let her know.

In meditation I asked Julianus what the silver line was.

THE ESOTERIC CORD

He said:

The line that you see is the ethereal silver cord that comes directly from Heaven.  It is like the spiritual version of an umbilical cord that connects to our solar plexus.  It links us to the universe and Heaven.  This is also what holds our soul in place  to our physical body.  When the human body is born, the tie breaks from Heaven but is still used to hold our soul onto the human body. When the human body dies, the tie reforms as a line to return to Heaven.  You can later on in life travel on it which you will know as Astral projection. As the human baby had not even experienced Earth life or breathed in the atmosphere, the heavenly link to the body was still attached as you saw in the photograph.

I was ashamedly sceptical and I am also mortified to say that I didn’t tell the mum this as I doubted it!  Two weeks later I was doing another evening of mediumship in Dartford.  A lady came up to me and I was gobsmacked when she showed me a picture of her baby boy born sleeping and asked me what the silver cord was coming from his tummy.  I told her instantly what it was and then phoned the other mum straight away.

Julianus enabled me to see this other photo to prove that he was right.  I have seen many other photographs of the same thing.

So Please know that if your baby is 3 weeks, 8 months or 3 days old in pregnancy or 3 weeks, 8 months or 3 days old having been born they are still a fully formed soul with memories, consciousness and a love for their family.  You will also meet all of your babies when you are reunited in Heaven.

YOU HAVE NOT LOST YOUR BABIES FOREVER.

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE

I have this wonderful story to share.  Two days ago one of my best friend’s son Jack was wondering along the breakwater in Brixham as kids do and found a bottle.  Inside was a beautiful message with stars and pretty things sealed in the bottle. (I won’t divulge too much in the description for privacy of the person).

They got home and shared the find on Facebook as it seemed very important that the sender of the bottle be informed.

Well hours later the owner of the bottle was miraculously traced.

She had lost her young child and her friend had lost her baby.  A year and a day ago, on the birthday of the oldest child, mum had thrown some bottles out to sea.  It was a gesture relating to her daughter and her friend’s daughter as a wish that they were together in Heaven and never forgotten.

To find the bottle ONE day after the young girls birthday a year later was totally wonderful and a sure sign that the girls are together and wanted their mums to know!

HOW DO WE KNOW WHEN THEY VISIT?

Babies and young children have a very definitive way of making their spirit known to us.  In readings, every baby I have ever seen shows themselves about 4 years old, so that I can describe their features to their parents.  The first thing to realise is that your baby may visit you in your dreams around this age or the age they would be now.  So be aware of this.

APPORTING

Babies love to bring things to you to let you know that they are there.  The most interesting one I ever came across was at a house where a woman was getting nappies left on her landing regularly.  She was scared that her ex was breaking in and trying to mess with her head.

When I was there I sensed the presence and then saw a cheeky looking little spirit boy poking his head around the bathroom door.  He then went on to tell me that he was leaving the nappies to remind his mum that it was his anniversary and that he would always look after his sister.  She was gobsmacked.  So was I, I could not work out or even try to, how he was managing to manifest nappies into the ether!  When we checked the diary, it was indeed five years to the day that he had been born sleeping.  Since that day the nappies never arrived again, but the mum now sees her spirit son running around the house.

I learned two things that day, babies can manifest anything and they always act as guardian angels over their siblings.  This explains the phenomena of ‘imaginary friends’,  they usually are the spirit of the child’s brother or sister.

We obviously do also have random spirit children that are attracted to children’s energies down here, but this is very rare,  they will usually be family.  Look out for buttons, white feathers, coins and other items that have been UNEXPLAINABLY placed somewhere.

TOYS

Of course kids love their toys.  So your living children’s toys will be moved, will turn on by themselves or repeatedly go missing and then turn up again in random places.  Look out for it!

ASPORTING YOUR STUFF!

Babies also have a tendency to want to asport your personal items, such as jewellery, hair brushes, clothing, anything you that you use regularly.  The phenomena is called ‘asporting’ they either move it to another location, or it goes missing for a long time and then appears in a obvious place that you would have noticed if it was there before.

GIGGLES

You may also hear running footsteps which is a very common phenomena.  I was doing an intimate evening of mediumship at someones house and I started to communicate with the mum’s baby that she lost in pregnancy.  Within  seconds the whole audience went white as we heard running footsteps upstairs knowing there was nobody up there! Bless him!  You may also hear giggling as well.

FEEL THEIR LOVE

Whenever I link with spirit children and babies I feel a freezing, bubbling breeze over my thighs and lower legs.  If you are sitting down it’s like they are coming up to you and pulling themselves onto your lap.  See if you ever feel this without any noticeable or explainable draughts.  They also love to touch you especially your face and hair.  This can also be seen in orbs next to your other children.  They can be first stage manifestation, a circle creating it’s own light (make sure they are not dust particles!), second stage – trailing comet shaped light anomalies, or third stage – White mist.  The colours can be different they don’t have to be white.  So keep a look out when photographing your children!

If you have any pics that you want help with please add them to the comments below.

A for Andrew

I was doing a reading for someone and a young boy was communicating with me.  I asked him to spell his name out for me. I then felt burning on my left hand and was amazed to see the letter ‘A’ being scratched onto my hand!  His name was Andrew which was confirmed by the family.  Don’t worry they won’t go to this extreme with you, but I am just showing you what they are capable of!  Amazing!

ENCOURAGING COMMUNICATION

As I always say at this juncture, DO NOT try and start a spiritual relationship with someone when you have not grieved properly or don’t understand spirit communication very well.

But if you are feeling up for it here are a few tips to get you started!

Buy something that represents your baby if you have nothing connected to them or create a sacred space in your garden.  Then tell your baby out loud that this item /space represents them.  They can then possibly interact with this item or it gives you something to focus on if you want a chat with them.  Take pictures of the space, you may capture something!

The Amethyst crystal amongst other things heightens your third eye chakra and helps you to focus on the spirit world. Grab one!

With the amethyst, try meditation or just simply ask for you to see your babies in your dreams.  It does help to hold something that they had contact with.

Any objects that you know have been sent by them keep in a box as it heightens their ethereal energy in that space.

Please do not be ashamed that you are still grieving your baby.  If you need to talk about them please do.  If people around you don’t want to hear it, there’s something wrong.

Google the stages of grieving.  If you are still held in denial, anger, guilt or depression and it has been a healthy passing of time (couple of years) you really should seek a bereavement counsellor.

Electronic Voice Phenomena

If you are brave enough try EVP (Electronic Voice Phenomena).  Children are excellent at resonating their voice with Electro Magnetic Field energy.  This energy creates sound on any digital recording device.  You can actually hear their spirit voice and they will answer your questions after practice.  ONLY do this if you are prepared to hear spirit voices.  It can be terrifying if you are not ready!

Talk to them out loud if you feel they are present and acknowledge any phenomena they bring.  They can hear your thoughts and voices and will  know when they are getting through to you.

It also goes without saying if you wish to seek communication through a medium,  PLEASE go to someone who is recommended word of mouth and doesn’t charge the Earth.  There are a some dodgy ones out there that will hurt you and hinder your progress!  You have been warned!

TRYING FOR A LITTLE ‘UN

To help with fertility call upon Archangel Gabriel to help facilitate the pregnancy.

Wear rose quartz on you all of the time.  This is one of the main fertility stones.

Write a letter of intent to the Universe i.e

‘It is August 2018 and I am pregnant’ statement the fact, don’t wish for the future.

Stop letting your energy pull you down every month when you discover that you are not pregnant.  Let it go and let the University provide!  Your thoughts and emotions create your future!

I don’t want to make this too long as there is so much else I could mention. I’m worried that you are yawning by now! lol

If you have any questions or concerns regarding this awfully traumatic subject please ask below in the comments and I will gladly help you.

You have never lost any of your babies forever, trust me, they are with you more than you know xxxxx

All my love

Nicky xx

 

 


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Don’t go hating!

HEARTBREAK AND HURT

Have you ever woken up and the first thing on your mind is the delicious fantasy of the demise of the person who has hurt you?  In fact scrap the first morning thought, every waking second when your mind has nothing else to think about it but that person?  The one you wish still lived in an era where they could be hung, drawn and quartered?

Yes we have all been there.

People hurting us in whatever way draws the soul into a gut wrenching tirade of self loathing for being taken in by that person, absolute heart break, awareness of self vulnerability, uncontrollable grieving, anger and a teeth clinching hatred that that person can still walk around breathing, laughing and moving on.

Head explosive anger!

Head explosive anger!

THOUGHT PATTERNS

When we can in a quiet moment we almost relish in the fact that we can think out the most avenging things for the villain in our story. We should really curl up on the sofa with a bar of chocolate, glass of wine and  a roaring fire to plot our revenge as we put so much effort into it, so why not add some nice accessories during the raging thoughts of destruction and ultimate  hate?

When we are in the rawness of human hurt, we don’t even begin to look outside ourselves to see what is really happening.  We are far too busy thinking out the next witty sarcastic remark to add to their Facebook page! As we cry our hearts out, eating Ben and Jerry’s listening to ‘All by myself’ (yes I stole that from Bridget Jones!) are we really doing ourselves a justice?

In a way yes, we all have to grieve what has been done to us.  If the grief is too overwhelming then perhaps we need outside help.  Either through psychotherapy or counselling.

But let us just for one minute think about the words that surround this hateful time .  Words that we have surrounded ourselves in, that our soul is absorbing and what we are stating to the Universe.

Hate, anger, sadness, loathing, agony, pain, heartache, vitriol, bitterness, jealousy, injustice, unfairness, humiliation, vulnerability, rage, frustration, angst, stress, anxiety, sickness, depression.  I could go on and on.

If I was playing a word game and had to guess the link between all of these words here I would say ‘hell’.

Yes a living hell.  So why bathe in hell?  Why put ourselves through more physical and mental pain by hanging onto it all?

“BECAUSE THEY DID THIS TO ME!”

Yes fair point, but why do we then keep ourselves in their energy for the foreseeable future?  It’s a done deed.  Why do we dwell in the darkened chasms of their ill will or bad behaviour for as long as we do?

Ask yourself, why?

You have two choices.  Live in their wake for as long as you choose to or look at this situation, honour it, feel it, then move on and let the Laws of the Universe do the rest.

“Yeah right Karma, as if that works!”

Karma isn’t revenge.  Karma is the natural consequence of your thoughts and actions.

If they live in a dishonest, selfish and hateful existence how can they surely escape their own actions?

The simple answer is they can’t.

So if you stay in their energy hating them and loathing them you are placing yourself in their boat, in their filthy pond attracting the other scum in other boats in the same pond.

What if you got off of the boat, waded to shore and dipped into the neighbouring cool fresh ocean filled with freedom, encountering new boats that are enjoying the crystalline waters of tranquillity and happiness?

Its stubborn pride that keeps us in that limited dark dank pond.

 

Get off that boat!

Get off that boat!

It is a fact that our thought patterns lead to an emotion that then leads to behaviour.  If we don’t catch it and kill it (Yes stole that from Bear Grylls!) then we remain in a never ending circle of negative feelings and emotions.  We have been through enough, so why put ourselves through any more pain.  YOU are the captain of your ship, so it’s up to you to decide if you want to stay in the shark infested pond or sail into the horizon in your newly found sparkling ocean.

GET THE ITINERARY FOR YOUR MAIDEN VOYAGE

There is nothing I loathe more than people who give you advice or you read about  people who give you facts and haven’t been through it themselves.  That’s why I always write on subjects that I have experienced and what I have done on a mindful and spiritual path to lose the pain.

I recently got exceptionally hurt by someone and felt mortified that I had been exposed to it (I write about it in my next column Diary of a Psychic!).  I nearly went down the same route I always do.  The road aptly named ‘Self Pity’ leading to the junction of ‘hate’ ending at the ‘revenge’ motorway.

Yes I spurted out some pretty hateful words on the first couple of days and was spitting flames, but then I checked myself and started to look at ways to move on from this madness.  By me continually raging, I was still on day one of the hurt and not moving anywhere fast!

So the first thing I did was call upon Archangel Raguel. He deals with all relationship battles and hardships in your life and will not stop until your harmony is restored.  He can also assists in legal battles and finding justice.

Archangel of justice, harmony, balance and vengeance

Archangel of justice, harmony, balance and vengeance

It does not matter if you do not believe in angels.  What have you got to lose?  They will answer whether you believe in them or not.

You have to invoke angels, they need permission to enter your lives.

It’s very simple to invoke them.  I just said,  “Archangel Raguel I give you permission to come into my life and deal with this situation as you see fit and take the pain of this away from me.” There, done.

Archangel Raguel works on a pale blue light ray, so when you ask him to come and help imagine a big pale blue ball of light as you ask.

Trust me it works.

I then made sure I did something EVERY DAY that was for me and my indulgence. Basically a ‘self love’ exercise.

I am somewhat limited to movement so did self healing in meditation,  but for the sprightly person I would always recommend healing.  Either at a local spiritualist centre or a local recommended Reiki practitioner.

My friend Ian’s website thespiritguides.co.uk holds the best comprehensive directory of healing services near you.

The next thing is to get all of your thoughts and emotions out.  For the more physical people, go run and scream out somewhere isolated.  Scream to the top of your lungs until you can’t scream any more. Go punch something (Preferably a punch bag, not the villain in this piece!) go and play sport.  exhaust yourself of the emotion burdening you.

If you prefer a more cadenced approach write out your feelings in a journal (my students know I love a journal!)  keep writing until you get bored of writing about the same thing.  I also ask a family member in spirit within the words to also help me out.  This means that you have exhausted all of the negative thought patterns in your mind and soul through your writing.  It is very cathartic and it will surprise you how much you end up writing.

Whether you are in a field like a crazed lunatic or writing your woes out in a journal also state your INTENT.  Where you want to be in six months time.  The Universe needs to understand the problem, how you want to move from it and what you want at the end of it. (Don’t say ‘agony for that rat!’  It’s all about you remember!).

CRYSTALS

Sunstone is the ultimate crystal for this situation.

Self empowerment stone

Self empowerment stone

Sun stone gives you self empowerment, vitality and cleanses you from the negative actions of other people.  It is also excellent for strength and courage say in an interview (or court hearings if you are divorcing them!)  Have it as jewellery, in your pocket, or ladies in your bra, that’s where I keep mine.  Don’t forget to charge them  I will be doing a blog on crystal care another time.

If the villain is still in your life, i.e a difficult boss, awful neighbour or negative colleague then get yourself a Laboradite.  This is the best protection from other peoples intentions that you can get.  It mirrors their energy and protects your auric field at the same time.  Plus it is absolutely lush to look at.  When I know I need it, I wear it as a pendant and smile inside knowing that every intention coming out of that fickle person is being reflected right back into their soul! Love it!

full on protection

full on protection

Again you may not even have faith in crystals but they do work.  They resonate with our meridians to create an energy that works in it’s own unique way.

There are many crystals that can help but these two have appeared in my mind for this input so I will go with it.

After you have dealt with this situation and person for a while, the next natural step is to move on.  This is where the daddy of the Archangels needs to rock up, sweep you off of you feet, cut any ties that bind you to that person and sail you off into the sunset not giving them a second thought!

Cut those ties that bind you

Cut those ties that bind you

ARCHANGEL MICHAEL

He works on a royal blue ray of colour.  Do the same, ask him to come to your aid to give you the strength to move on and live your life to the full.  Usually you will get a sign that the angels have heard within a couple of days after the invocation.  It could be a white feather apported in an unusual place, an angel symbol in an unusual place or any personal synchronicity that makes you think, “Wow, that’s my sign to say I have been heard!”  Don’t forget to look out for angel numerology.  Any numbers of three or the number three in them.

I know it hurts.  I know it is exceptionally hard, but there is one more thing you must do to break the energy connection between you and the baddie.!  You are going to resent this and it will sting but it is the only thing that works.

Love over hate is a stronger more tangible energy.  It empowers you and sends a beacon of light out into the Universe that you now embrace and attract love.

You must send love to the baddie.

Yes I know, impossible right?

I send pink hearts to them and then move on with my day.  It takes a lot to get to this stage but when you do do it, it feels empowering.

By doing this, you are streets above their pathetic behaviour.  You are moving on loving and valuing yourself and your self worth.

Leave them in their pond and to their own karma.

It works if you work it.  It’s up to you.

Crystalline turquoise waters, or a dark dank pond?

Send that love.  The Universe will love you for it xx

All you need is love

All you need is love

Good luck, own that Love!

Until next time

Nicky xx

 

 

 

 


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THE POWER OF ANIMAL TOTEMS

Hi all,

CHANGE OF PACE

As you most probably saw on Facebook, I have decided to put my soul diaries in book format  as so many of you have emailed and messaged me with this idea.  So I have taken it on board and then realised if I carried on blogging about it there would be spoilers to the book! Lol.

So I had a little meditation on the subject and I was told to just address spiritual matter that would assist you in your daily lives.

I would also love to answer any questions you may have through the comments section on this page.  But remember you have to subscribe first!

So ask away! I am all yours!

Here to help!

Here to help!

BABY TOAD

I was wondering what to start this new blog on and within a few seconds I noticed something in the corner of my eye.  Right by my bedroom door was this little fellow.  He sat there for about 40 minutes.  When I asked, “Are you an animal totem?” He hopped off!

My lil animal totem

My lil animal totem

So I took it as a yes!  He was also sitting next to a feather, all be it not a white fluffy one that angels bring, but still a cute little feather!

Now the strangest thing is, before I noticed him, I was not only thinking on my blog I was having a bit of a crisis.

For those of you that know me and have been reading my blog I am suffering chronic illness .  The only way for me to focus on goals and still help human kind at the moment is through my writing.

I can get upset sometimes that I can not currently tour and visit people in person so writing to me is so very important. Plus I can do it in my pj’s!

BRAIN EXPLOSION!

I have been getting the expected ‘no’s from agents for my paranormal fiction book EARTH WALKERS and was feeling a little jaded and my self confidence took a little tumble down self esteem lane! I have only queried it 15 times so I really need to be patient!  But, I am the sort of person that then jumps about looking for another solution.  So I have decided to write non fiction books aswell using my vast esoteric knowledge.

So…… when I am thinking, should I carry on with fiction? Should I concentrate more on non fiction?  Do people care what I write about? Am I wasting my time? Shall I just stay in bed and forget the whole thing?  My guides must have thought, “Oh God she is having yet  another brain explosion, best send her a sign!”  (Feel so sorry for them, I wonder if they have Valium up there?)

Yep, hair pulling time!

Yep, hair pulling time!

 

So they then send a  baby toad!  Don’t ask me how they do it!  You may as well ask me one on rocket science!  I  have witnessed over the years so many times weird behaviour and oddly timed creatures in my path right at the magic time that I need them.

So after my little crisis and watching my warty little visitor I google ‘Toad animal totem’

Wow here was the answer:

If a toad totem has recently entered your life, consider the following points:

Are you going through an important transition in your life? Toad spirit symbolizes transitional phases of one’s life because of their own unique growing phases: the egg, the tadpole, and finally, the toad. Maybe you’re going through a big life change, in spirit or in reality, and frog totem has entered your life to remind you that change is a natural and positive part of life.

CHANGING FROM A WORKING PSYCHIC MEDIUM TO A WORKING PSYCHIC WRITER HAS DAUNTED ME SO MUCH SO THIS IS SPOT ON.  I AM ALSO BEING SHOWN MUCH DEEPER PHILOSOPHY AND UNIVERSAL UNDERSTANDING.

Are you bogged down or bored with your day to day activities? If you’ve gotten too comfortable in your day to day life, frog spirit may be here to remind you to clear out your “muddy waters” and rejuvenate your spirit by doing things that bring you passion

TOTALLY TRUE I AM BED BOUND MOST DAYS WHICH CAN SOMETIMES LEAD TO NEGATIVITY IF I LET IT. WRITING DOES REJUVENATE ME ALONG WITH THE PRISM COURSES AND MEDITATION I DO.  SO THIS IS OBVIOUSLY SAYING KEEP ON GOING!

Are you having trouble committing yourself to one single goal?  HAHA! A BIG FAT GLOOPY RESOUNDING  YES!

Frogs and toads alike enjoy leaping from place to place, and if you feel particularly drawn to one of these amphibians, you may tend to be a totem person that leaps from one thing to another as well. You might need to take some time to decide what your goals are and assess if you are taking the proper steps to get there.

QUESTION ANSWERED.  SIT BACK, TAKE STOCK AND DO ONE THING AT A TIME!

See? That’s how it works.  You have most probably worked out that I am not an airy fairy psychic.  I am grounded, I am an open minded sceptic and do question everything.  So I don’t think every time I see an animal in my garden it is a totem.    But when you whisper to a toad when it has sat there for 40 minutes “Are you an animal totem?” and within seconds it hops off, that’s pretty weirdy!

I have had it happen so many times with dragonflies, robins, birds, butterflies and deer to name but a few.  Robins and butterflies are by far the most common though.  They are very popular with your loved ones for sending a message to you to say that they are OK.  This will also occur at special times, i.e anniversaries, relevant dates or if you have asked for a sign.

PROPHECY

I even had a prophetic totem visitation.  My ex brother in law came through and told me at his funeral he would send the butterfly indoors as a sign from him.

At the wake I was sitting in the lounge and a butterfly came in through the conservatory and landed on my shoulder and sat there!

ACTING UNNATURALLY?

So if you are looking at a creature that is acting weird or turns up at a certain time every day or is perhaps a loved ones favourite pet that keeps rocking up in your garden (Not the actual one of course!), take note!

You may also be dreaming of the same animal regularly or seeing one in a meditation.  However they wish to be brought to you take note of this old ancient Native American Phenomena and google that animal!

We are continually being brought signs and synchronicity from our loved ones, guides, guardian angels and Archangels, but we choose to ignore them, doubt them or plain old poo poo them!

Poor loves! It must be like playing Give us a Clue or Catchphrase under an invisibility cloak!

Hello? Can you see me?

Hello? Can you see me?

I get so many emails and messages from people that need help and can’t seem to see a way forward.  If we just stop, open our hearts, eyes and ears and live in the present with a bit more calm then we will begin to notice and pick up on the fact that we are being guided more than we realise.

So look out for the animals!

Look forward to any questions you have, have a good week xxxxx


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New column ‘Diary of a Psychic’ in Spirit & Destiny magazine

Hi all,

I am honoured and happy to announce that I have a new column in Spirit & Destiny magazine chronicling my life and the really weird things that happen on a daily basis!

I hoe you enjoy it.  The new look,

My new column 'Diary of a Psychic'

My new column ‘Diary of a Psychic’

revamped magazine is out now!

Lots of love Nicky x


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The Boot Camp of my Mind

HEALING STARTS FROM WITHIN

Have you ever woken up and thought, why the hell did I dream of that for?  Well I did , it was a random dream that was so intense that I woke up tearful.  I had dreamt that I was still with a certain ex who pretty much broke my heart.  I put it down to a random dream, but the next night it happened again.

This then lead to three weeks of dreaming about all my exes that had done wrong, been awful or had really hurt me.

By week one I realised that it was another spiritual boot camp.  I was healing my broken heart of bad relationships.  There were quite a few I can tell you!

The dreams felt so real it was like I was reliving them.  Every thought feeling and behaviour was revisited during dream state.

I needed to form a plan

I needed to form a plan

The first thing I did was dive into my spiritual knowledge itinerary.  What could I use or do to help me understand, heal from and end my apparent heart break?

ANGELS

Firstly I called upon Archangel Raphael as he is the Archangel of Healing.  I then called upon Archangel Azrael.  Now Archangel Azrael is usually the Archangel of death.  Not the grim reaper!  He helps souls part from their body and acclimatise to their new form.  He also assists people who are suffering the loss of that loved one.  However, he also assists with grieving and moving on from situations that brought us harm.  So I decided to call upon him.

After I had done the invocation, I decided to pull a few angel cards and to my amazement the first two cards were Azrael and Raphael.  The next two were, ‘time to heal from past hurt‘ and ‘importance in knowing your self worth and value

Wow they had heard my plea already!

I then had an Amethyst crystal resting on my heart chakra when I was laying down which was pretty much most of the day.

Amethyst amongst other benefits help you to grieve situations or people.

Now I didn’t think that I was grieving these losers from my past but obviously my guides and angels knew differently!

TOUGH TIMES

Admittedly it was tough.  A lot of the time I woke up crying or still feeling the love I had for these men.  I couldn’t understand how this was helping me, reliving each let down.

However, I diligently wrote out my feelings in my soul journal and started to see a pattern between the lines.

Incredibly and I have to add this now. I have at this very second received a message about my ex who stole thousands from me after my accident?! Talk about synchronicity! Wow! Karma works, I swear.

Anyway back to my journal.

ARE YOU WITH THE WRONG MAN OR WOMAN?

Writing in journals heals the soul

Writing in journals heals the soul

When I started to read over my experiences and what had happened in the relationships in black and white, it hit me like a bolt of lightening.  I have had such low self esteem that I had attracted predators time and time again.  Like attracts like, so what I thought of myself and believed about myself was unhealthy and so I naturally attracted the same ilk of men.

You are who you attract

You are who you attract

I realised that this had to change.

I needed to value myself, put me first and love everything about me unconditionally.

MY LIST

The first thing I did was make a TO DO list in my soul journal.

Students of my PRISM LIVING course will know all about this!  My Soul Journals are my most precious possession.  I cannot recommend enough keeping a diary of your innermost thoughts and feelings.  The words in black and white provide so much clarity and power!

My first TO DO was self care.  I could not cope with daily living so I decided to surrender and reach out.  I asked for a carer and help and I soon got it.

I got a cleaner in as i was not able to.  So instead of crying over a mess in the house this was now resolved.

I got a dog walker for my babies to release the guilt of not being able to take them out.

I decided to say three things every morning that I liked about myself.

I decided that I would not have ANYONE enter my house who I didn’t really want there.

I decided to improve my diet and try to manage my comfort eating.

I repeatedly placed a blessing on the names of the people who had abused me, hurt me, lied to me and cheated on me.  I sent them pink roses and asked for me to be let go emotionally from their energy that was obviously still connected to me. I did this with past friends as well.

I arranged for a counsellor to attend my home.

After doing this for just two weeks I felt incredibly different. To receive help in my daily care, to help me get through my pain emotionally and to love myself was life changing.

I started to get regular contact from friends I had let fade because of my illness.  These were my true die hard friends.

I find now that I am surrounded by the most caring, kindhearted genuine friends who have no ulterior motive.

If there is anyone who comes into my life with the wrong energy, their true colours are exposed so quickly it is quite remarkable.  My psychic intuition rings out stronger than it ever has  as soon as their energy changes to darker motives.

I am now free from the binds that tied me to past hurt.

Write out who has hurt you.  Make changes to move away from that energy.  Analyse your current relationships and see if you are in a mutually beneficial relationship with unconditional love.

If not

CHANGE IT!

I was such a people pleaser.  I was so desperate to be loved.  I would agree to things that I really didn’t want to do.  I allowed people that drained me and just used me for my esoteric knowledge to stay in my life.  I felt too weak and unsure of myself to say NO.  That ended by the conclusion of this particular boot camp.

Healing from hurt is never easy.  Nothing that is right is ever easy.  But believe me when you make the changes and start listening to your inner child, you become empowered.  The beauty of self belief and self love is truly remarkable.  It changes you as a person.  I will never let anyone ever take me for granted again.  Do the same!  Change your life!

It certainly worked for me.

After this period of self realisation, the dreams stopped of my exes and I felt a profound sense of freedom and inner strength.

I started to look forward to 2017  with such zest as I knew this would be the end of my dark night of the soul  (Please google this) and my resurrection. I couldn’t thank the angels and the Spirit World enough.  They were dragging through my every mistake and reason for failing in life.

I still get tearful now with so much gratitude as I look at my life now.  I am of course still chronically ill but it doesn’t matter.  I am surrounded by love, support and respect.  I adore my home and my fur babies, I am sugar and gluten free and on a bad day like this when I can’t get out of bed, rather than enshroud myself with self pity and sadness I have the wonderful opportunity to write and share my knowledge and experience with you beautiful people.  What could be better?

But whilst this seems like my fairy tale ending, I still had to get there!  There were still many battles ahead of me!

PHOENIX

But at that time in my life, with no permanent home and feeling so alone in the world with no career, I envisioned nothing but the Phoenix as soon as I started to slip into emotional darkness.  Like a phoenix from the flames, I knew that I was going to be reborn.  I had faith stronger than ever that my life was going to be amazing.

I am the Phoenix

I am the Phoenix

I was still bed bound most of the time, still in pain 24/7 but my mind kept me focused.  Yes I had horrendous days and still had obstacles to face in the next coming years, but, I KNEW I was going to be OK.  I just had to be patient and honour my healing journey.  That was the difference.

Until next time

Nicky xx

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT…… SPIRITUALIST CHURCHES

Hi all,

Ever wondered about spiritualist churches / centres and what they are all about?

Want to go but don’t know what to expect?

Spiritualist churches and centres offer like minded people to get together, you can get a reading from a medium, healing and access to all sorts of development courses.

I have an article in Take a Break’s Fate & Fortune that details everything you need to know about them

It fits perfectly in with students who are currently working on session two of my PRISM LIVING course!

The article comes out on 1st July

Hope it helps

Namaste

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PRISM LIVING – SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT AND EMPOWERMENT COURSE

Hi all,

I am pleased to announce that my online course is now LIVE!

All you have to do is visit the SHOP page on my website at nickyalan.co.uk add the course to your cart and pay through Paypal.  Once payment has been received you will receive session one of the course. or click the link below
BOOK USING THE LINK BELOW AND FOLLOW THE PROMPTS

You will then be sent each session every seven days.

I truly hope that you benefit as I did using the tools and working yourself to a happier and more content way of life.

Remember I am here if you have any questions or problems.

Good luck!  Go for it!

Namaste

Nicky xxx


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NEWS JUST IN! ONLINE SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT COURSE WITH NICKY ALAN!

Become the light that you have always been!

Become the light that you have always been!

***COMING SOON! ONLINE SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT & EMPOWERMENT COURSE WITH NICKY ALAN – PRISM LIVING***

Do you feel underwhelmed with life? Do you get bouts of depression and a feeling of total uselessness? Are you surrounded by people that bring you down or drain you? Do you hate your job or where your life is going? Always trying to diet or go to the gym but never quite manage after week one? Are you drained of energy? Are you sick of being in a rut? Do you have bad sleep patterns and can’t shut your stressed brain off? Do you find you just get one bad thing happen after the other? Do you want to try and establish a spiritual relationship with your loved ones in spirit? Are you interested in The angel realms and how they can help you? Feel you have psychic ability but don’t know what to do with it?

Well then this is the course for you!

You will receive a seven week online course in every aspect of how to improve your life spiritually on a daily basis and how to gain that all important feeling that you are not alone no matter what life brings and the tools to enable it! You will be sent weekly sessions filled with exercises and advice on how to get the best out of life and the Universal energy!

 

To prebook please email me at nicky.alan@btinternet.com. When the course commences, a payment method will be available on the merchandise page at www.nickyalan.co.uk

BOOK USING THE LINK BELOW AND FOLLOW THE PROMPTS

Seven week course costs £45. I will be available to answer any questions via email throughout the course. If I can’t get to you physically I can reach out with technology!
Look forward to working with you! 😀
Nicky xx

MANDATORY DISCLAIMER
You have paid to take part in a workshop which is in the nature of an experimental educational programme; no claims are made and results cannot be guaranteed. You may experience things which you may not have experienced before. If any of you feel you may be vulnerable you should not partake in the course and seek medical advice or counselling.
The participant certifies that he/she is not aware of any medical or psychiatric condition which might affect his/her interpretation of the workshop and that he/she is voluntarily seeking these services for him herself and assumes full responsibility for the outcome.


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ME Myself and I. My Soul Diaries 13

THE MAGIC OF MEDICINE

Hello all. I find that my blogs are a  bit more few and far between at the moment, it’s due to my unpredictable condition.  I truly hope that you are enjoying them, as always I value your feedback.

If you know anyone that could benefit from reading them as a Chronic Illness sufferer or who may be interested on how the celestial realms guide us and help us please feel free to pass my experiences on xx

NAN’S VISIT

I saw the silver threads of light darting like sprites across my landing before I even thought I was going to see a manifestation. I was so weak and exhausted that I didn’t sense the usual feelings that one experiences prior to a manifestation.  Usually the hairs on the back of my neck go up, I get goosebumps, the temperature can either go up or down dramatically.  I usually smell who the person is as well.   My nan has her own smell its a bit like old fashioned perfume mixed with an old clothes smell that hasn’t been in the fresh air for a while.  My dad will be beer or cigarettes.  They are not the best smells but they will pick something that you will notice that you don’t ordinarily smell.

Usually when my dad also manifests some electrical phenomena that will bring my attention to his presence.  In the past he has rung the doorbell again and again, even changing the tune on the chime.  He has set off the microwave with the letters AFM which are his initials, he has turned the television off and on and turned all the lights on in the house after I have switched them all off.  With my dad’s dad I always see a dark grey suit, my mum’s dad I just feel him standing tall at the doorway.  All of your spirit loved ones will manifest the same way each time so that you can understand and identify them.  They will choose their way to manifest though.  So look out for similar feelings or senses when you believe they may be with you.  If you feel something odd in the ether or sense someone with you the easiest thing to do is close your mind and your eyes, the first person to be shown in your mind is usually the person who is there, you just have to trust it!

As I am writing this my sleeping dogs, Teddy and Mia have just jumped up and are barking like mad.  There is only birdsong, nothing else to rouse them, so perhaps I have drawn some of my lot here by talking about them!  I have already told you of the power of music, so always listen out for their favourite music.  They will try everything and anything to maintain a relationship with you.  The fact they have had a funeral is totally irrelevant.

Manifest the love that is there....

Manifest the love that is there….

So after the firework display of silver in my landing I then saw my nan who was unmistakable with her striking white hair and large figure.  She was walking away from me but then stop and turned.  I laid there breathless.  She looked transparent with a silver glow around her.  She said three words…..

Go on Facebook‘” she then turned around and walked past the door and that was that.  Now to say that I felt a little deflated was an understatement! Of all the things she could have said,  she said this!  Also you may be thinking how does she know about Facebook?  All of your loved ones no matter how long ago they have passed, walk with you, sit with, you share your life experiences, so they know exactly what things you do and all of the latest mod cons we use.

GERMANY

I remember doing a reading once in Germany , it went a bit like this

Me “Your dad is saying that you met on the internet, on a dating site. He really likes your husband.”

Her “That can’t be my dad he wouldn’t have a clue about the internet or Match!”

Me “Has everything I told you so far made sense?  His name being Peter*, that he was a carpenter, passed in a fire, all the rest of the stuff I have said is right?”

Her “Yes”

Me “Good, then you know that this is your dad.  You must also know that they watch us whenever they want.  They know what is happening, who we are seeing, what TV programmes we watch.  They learn of the new technology as they see us use it. You did meet your husband on a dating site didn’t you?”

“Yes”

“Then know that your dad has seen this and the evidence that I have told you tells you that he is still alive and with you.”

They learn what we do, when we do it and how. Another common one is the sitter will say it is not their loved one communicating as they are mentioning something that took place after they passed, like someone being born or getting married.  Of course they know this has happened as they are still with us!

FACEBOOK

So I knew that my nan would not make all the effort to come down to me if it wasn’t for a good reason so I immediately went on to Facebook.  The first thing I saw was the news feed and this lady crying with pure joy.  She had been in bed with ME/ Fibromyalgia for ten years.  She had taken a drug that her friend had recommended and within five days she was down the park with her granddaughter.  The video then scanned round the park and back on this woman who was playing with her granddaughter.  Usually I would think this was a scam or some rubbish to make money, but as my nan had told me at that exact time to go on Facebook and the first thing I saw relates to my condition, I started to google this wonder drug.

LDN TRY IT BEFORE ANYTHING

LDN TRY IT BEFORE ANYTHING

LOW DOSE NALTREXONE

LDN RESEARCH

WIKI LDN

Now I am going to scoot a couple of weeks on from this faithful night on the 27th July.  Luckily if you remember I had found the perfect GP.  I immediately made an appointment with him and asked for this drug.  He was totally proactive and agreed to prescribe it.  He was already treating patients for MS with it.  I was exceptionally lucky because most GP’s have never heard of it or won’t prescribe it.  Unfortunately it is a post code lottery.  Why don’t we know about this drug?  One guess. MONEY.  Because the Professor that manufactured it didn’t want it as a profit drug it has not gone through the FDA, unlike the higher dose which is used to treat diseases such as HIV and AIDS. No profit, pharmaceutical companies aren’t interested.

It is an opiate based drug and on researching it for weeks I found that most people had a hundred per cent recovery rate.  It treats Cancer, Hashimotos, Arthritis, Lymes disease, Chronic pain, Alzheimers, Parkinsons etc.  Any neuro, central nervous sytem, auto immune disease can be treated.  I have put a few links above so that you can have a look for yourself.

LIFE CHANGE

I was so nervous as I so wanted it to work.  What I can say is after taking it for five days I was able to get up and sit in the lounge.  I slowly came off of all of my heavy pain killers.  The morphine, tramadol, cocodamol and gabapentin went in the bin.  I had no side effects and there is no weaning off, you can stop it whenever you want to.  Unfortunately it only improved my condition slightly unlike thousands of others but I was grateful to be out of my bed permanently for three years.   It DEFINITELY improved my standard of life.   At least I was off the cocktail of hard drugs as I still am now.  In fact I started to write my book, EARTH WALKERS even more regularly and felt a little more hopeful on a daily basis.  I can not say it will work for you but I can say if you don’t give it a go, you are very unwise.

If you are one of the unlucky ones who has an ignorant doctor who steers away from ‘off the label’ treatments, then you can order this to your door privately.  This puts it into context how cheap it is.  It is £9 privately to buy.  The charge for prescription and delivery makes it £18 pr month, worth every penny.

Do your research and try this drug!

Here’s a link for the chemist who will help you if you need to get it privately.  You will have to prove that you have been diagnosed with your condition.  You will have a session on the telephone with one of the Doctors from Clinic 158 and then, the rest as they say is history, it arrives through your letter box and you start getting an improved state of life.

DICKSON CHEMIST GLASGOW

You have to find the sweet spot of mg’s that works for you though.  It takes a bit of time going up and down the dosages but you will eventually learn your individual dose requirement.  I stay permanently on 2.6 mg but the highest you can go is 4.5 mgs.

Give it a go, what have you got to lose?

So with my magical nan helping me in the most amazing way, my diet improved and not living so much in a dark hell what was next?

My next healing boot camp, my exes!

*The name has been changed to respect the privacy of the client

 

 


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Me Myself and I. My Soul diaries 13.

SURRENDER IS THE KEY, DENIAL IS YOUR PRISON

The visit of that lovely spirit lady raised my vibration in a big way.  It gave me impetus to start looking at my life and make some pivotal decisions.  I needed to start facing reality and realise that this was my new life.  It was nothing like my old life but I started thinking that I needed to reach out for help.  I needed to find ways to help myself and set goals that were reasonable and manageable with my condition.  I was starting to pull away the threads of denial.  I was disabled, in need of serious support and I needed to own the reality of being a sufferer of a chronic condition that was not going to go away any time soon.

Time to set sail away from this space

Time to set sail away from this space

The first thing that I did was change my GP.  It was one of the best decisions ever.  My new doctor was very empathic and completely understanding of ME and fibro sufferers.  He was open to any treatments and exceptionally supportive.  He even allowed me to phone him whenever I wished as he knew I couldn’t get to the surgery easily.  The next thing I did was call the local community care team who were brilliant.  They provided me with equipment that assisted bathing and every day things that I couldn’t manage.  My carer would regularly visit and help me with absolutely anything I needed, even if it was just a therapeutic chat.  These two phone calls took a long time to do, as I found coping with change and reaching out into the world very difficult but was so pleased with myself when I did.  I also got a cleaner as I couldn’t risk using my energy up cleaning. I arranged a massage therapist to visit my home when I was up to it to soothe my agonised muscles. I arranged a dog walker.  It was an absolute joy to watch Teddy and Mia sit at the gate waiting for the dog walker to arrive.  It was like they had a sixth sense.  They knew the days he was coming along with three other fur babies and would sit patiently listening out for his car.

BABY STEPS LEAD TO GIANT CHANGE

I felt strengthened by these tiny little steps.  I would always recommend tiny goals to set yourself that are MANAGEABLE, even if just one gets ticked off in a week, it’s a step in the right direction.

Out on their walks

Out on their walks

Walkies!

Walkies!

The next thing I set myself to do was reach out and find forums that had members coping with chronic illness.  It was one of the best things I did.  On Facebook I met a beautiful group, The Barmy girls who were from all over the world.  We don’t sit wailing and moaning, we cheer each other up and support each other.  So during my lonely nights there was always someone to talk to.  There are many support forums on Facebook for chronic illness sufferers, I cannot recommend them enough.  You also get fabulous advice and suggestions from hollistic remedies to updates on new drugs that are out.  I love those girls so much and what also helps is that they totally understand everything I am going through.  The most heart breaking thing is people not understanding your condition and making judgement.  I then started to reach out and tell me friends that I needed help.  Very slowly my ‘coping’ armour was taken off piece by piece.  When I couldn’t feed myself or cope, rather than starve or just eat biscuits I went and stayed at my friends’ Leigh Ann and Lynn’s house.  I allowed myself to be weak and frail, I allowed them to bring me cups of tea and lunch.  It felt alien but God I felt so much better admitting to people I had a debilitating condition that I couldn’t manage alone.  I changed my eating habits and did every diet that was recommended, but to be honest I felt no benefits from any of them but I still take the following health supplements:

Coenzyme Q10, Ubiquinol (Highest strength you can get), Vitamin D, Busy B’s, Cod Liver Oil, Glucasamine Sulphate (Has to be with Chondroitin), Magnesium (an absolute must!) and K2 which helps distribute the magnesium into your body.

ESSENTIAL OILS ARE ESSENTIAL!

I also find Epsom salt baths fantastic.  Put about four scoops in and to help your body even more, drop five to nine drops of essential oils into the last scoop.  I always use Lavender oil for pain relief and anti inflammatory as well as Bergamot which is a natural antidepressant.  In fact I burn essential oils all day and every day.  I studied the ones that particularly help my symptoms and they also make the house smell lush!

My friend also found this for me.  It is a very soothing oil mixture to rub on the most painful parts of your body.

DILUTE THE FOLLOWING INTO 30 ml OF OIL (ALMOND/VEGETABLE/CARRIER OIL)

5 DROPS THYME

10 DROPS ROSEMARY

5 DROPS CYPRESS

10 DROPS EUCALYPTUS

10 DROPS PEPPERMINT

Here’s a link to get you started on your path to the magic of essential oils   oils https://draxe.com/essential-oils-guide/

YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT

I also do juicing when I am feeling up to it for breakfast in my Nutribullet (another tip from my Facebook friends, thanks Paula!).  The most important things to add to your fruit/veg juice is nutmeg, cinnamon, turmeric, ginger.  These  all  have anti inflammatory and pain relief qualities.  I had indigestion and tummy problems for three years until one of my friends on my forum recommended fresh ginger.  My discomfort was gone within hours.  I also don’t drink alcohol and drink water like it is coming out of my ears.  I also have a thirst for Earl Grey tea.  I later found it was made from Bergamot, an anti depressant, so my body was telling me what it wanted.  The good thing about this new brain/ body is that you become so in sync with your body that your intuition tells you what you need.  I have never listened to my body and mind so much in all of my life.  It does cry out for sugar a lot, so even though it is bad I answer it’s call.  If there’s something it doesn’t want it’s normal rejected straight away!  I like things now that I never did before my illness like chocolate, coffee, green tea, ginger, but on the flip side things I adored do not agree with me anymore i.e wine, southern fried chicken, normal tea, strong spices.

THE EPIPHANY

Amazingly through this process I came to a striking revelation.  All of the advice I had doled out to thousands of people as a police officer and medium, I was now doing it for myself.  I had never thought to love and care for myself before.  I had never meditated every day or stopped and appreciated living in the moment.  I had never spoken to or lived such a spiritual existence.  The thorny vines of this illness curse were actually starting to bloom small flowers of positivity.

LISTEN TO YOUR BODY!  It has crashed for a reason, it is up to you to find out what it needs.  But remember we are all different and some things work better than others. Depression hits like a steam train with no warning.  All GP’s will prescribe you with some form of anti depressant.  They have found that apparently it helps with the nerve pain.  It will usually be something like prozac, fluoxetine or duloxetine.  I was not happy being prescribed with these drugs but I had no choice.  Be open to anything that will help you.

A HAPPY MIND MAKES A HAPPY BUNNY

But, there is one thing that will be the biggest battle of your life.  Your mindset.  I still struggle now but have improved a hundred fold in the last couple of years.  You have to find ways to keep you happy on the bed ridden days.  This can be music, comedy on the TV,  jigsaw puzzles, home crafts, adult colouring, meditation. You have to keep your mind busy because it will slowly descend into blackness if you do not find ways to keep yourself afloat mentally on the very bad days.

Why do you think I write this blog? lol 🙂

Curl up with a good book

Curl up with a good book

Obviously if your eyes and brain fog can cope, a good book is a must.  I go through hundreds of books, it’s a great way to escape.  But the most important thing is educating your loved ones.  The biggest problem I see from other sufferers is the lack of understanding by friends and family and them permanently trying to justify this invisible illness to them.  They are in more denial than you are.  If your husband/mum/mate is subtly referring to you as lazy, forcing you to get up and do things or insisting you get a grip, you need to start putting your foot down. They will NEVER understand how it feels.  They will never fully appreciate that every single second of every single day you are in pain somewhere or everywhere with no let up.  They can’t possibly understand that as soon as you stand, gravity pulls you down into a heavy, claustrophobic exhaustive suit that will not disappear and cannot be removed.  Tell them your feelings.  Tell them you need help.  Tell them to read up on what you are suffering with.  If they refuse to acknowledge your predicament, you have to make some serious decisions.  You CANNOT be surrounded by judgemental people who make you feel useless.  I am so lucky that my friends are understanding.  The ones who weren’t have diminished which is fine by me.  I don’t have to explain myself to anyone.

DON’T SUFFER FOOLS GLADLY

Unbelievably a lot of my friends in the last few years have been diagnosed with the same condition!  It is a very common pandemic that the health organisation and society have to wake up to.  The most incredible thing was, my friend Jay got diagnosed with ME. So we now hold each other up on the bad days. Us meeting was meant to be.  My old friend Nicky also was diagnosed along with FIVE others.  We have very interesting conversations normally starting with, “What’s wrong with you today!”

Be kind to yourself.  Admit you have a serious chronic condition and ADAPT.  You have to grieve your old life and find ways to survive in the new one that has befallen you.  There is no cure for this illness.  Don’t chase the next ‘miracle treatment’.  Cope with what you have, gain control and make yourself as comfortable as possible.

It is no mean feat but together we can continually fight this relentless beast.

Reach out, ask for help and love yourself.  On the bad days keep your mind busy and if you need to sleep all day, DO IT! On the good days don’t overdo it or you will find yourself in bed for days or weeks after.  We all do it though, it’s called booming and busting.

YOUR RIGHTS

I was no longer going out, buying clothes or spending money on normal life things so every penny I had went on helping me.  If you find as I did that you cannot work, you are entitled to benefits.  You can apply for PIP which is a living allowance for disabled people.  I also got a blue badge for my car and owned the fact that even though my title was ‘disabled’ I was still the same person but just needed a little help. Don’t suffer in silence like I did for three long years.

All of these achievements took ages to deal with and arrange.  But I felt so much stronger in myself and felt I had established some sort of control of my life.

However, I was still on Morphine, Gabapentin, Cocodamol, Ibuprofen, Duloxetine and Paracetamol.  I was eating them like smarties, but pain was still a constant companion.

A MESSAGE FROM HEAVEN

My clever Nan

My clever Nan

It took a visitation from my nan one night on the 27th July, to change my life considerably.  I will never forget the night that I saw the spirit of  her bustle across my landing, turn around and radically change my day to day life by saying three little  words……


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