Throughout my life as members of me family have passed I have felt them draw near to me whether in thought, dream state or in 'daydream' episodes. I know that my family members have always been my guides throughout my life. This is especially so with my father. He remained very close to me during my adolescence.

When I started to develop in circle in July 2003, I started to get extremely strong visions in my meditation unlike anything before. I kept getting taken to a ramshackle hut in the middle of nowhere. In that hut the first time was my dad and my Nan (maternal) all looking up and smiling at me. There was then this scruffy monk who resembled Steptoe! His hair was white and shaven, small white stubble on his face, but his eyes were strong, clear, wise and bright.
During this time I was then shown regularly a beautiful nun in white, her beauty was breath taking. I would always come out of the meditation in tears because of the beauty and love that she showed me. She only stayed with me for a while.
I also met with a beautifully handsome young warrior Native American who had the brightest green eyes. He would always bring me relevant tools, totems, objects that would prepare me for the future.

During the development in this closed circle, a little later on, the circle leader picked up on my Native American when I was linked with him. She stated that his name was something like Hammer hawk. I didn't mind not knowing his name, he was strong and beautiful, and I loved it when he turned up!

During the early stages of that circle, my paternal granddad, of which I hadn't seen for many years, came to me in the circle to tell me that he had passed. I was extremely surprised but glad that he was reunited with his eldest son, my dad. On speaking with my family who I have since reunited, he had passed a month prior to coming to me in the circle.
My granddad, Fred, the seventh son of a seventh son, is my guide who deals with trance, protection, outside lower energies and bringing me the most accurate and precise visions and premonitions.

Just after my granddad had arrived, I then started to see visions of a town I was told was near to York. I was in the Second World War era and kept seeing a lady with her arms bright red dipping them in boiling hot water, scrubbing linen. I would then see a young girl watching her. The house was small, terraced and in a back cobbled Street.
I would get the name John and then would feel a great loss of a child and then someone missing in the war. Another member of the group also picked this lost man up at the time. I then saw land girls and a young woman in a uniform driving about. I put this out to the circle but no one would take her. I asked for perhaps a friend's name, she told me Amy Stuart, after hearing this name I then saw a spiritualist church and then this lady telling me that she used to do the same as me.
I put all of this information out weekly but nobody would understand it.
Every week the same information would come through, this lady was quite large and wore floral type dresses in later life and had a dry sense of humour, but nobody could understand the link. I was so confused as it was so clear.
This lady then started to be with me during private readings and platforms. I sensed the East end of London as well as Yorkshire. I did not have a clue who she was.

In the end, every time she came through with her visions, I kept quiet as nobody could take her or understand who she was in circle.

In November of that year I went over to stay with family in Spain. Prior to going I went to a bookshop, closed my eyes and said, 'guide me'. I went to a book with my eyes closed, took it off the shelf and hey presto, there was the lady I had been seeing for months, she was there on the book cover in the flesh, Doris Stokes. I couldn't believe it. I have never read through a book so quickly to see if any of my visions made sense. Every one of them apart from Amy Stuart, her surname was actually Stuit, An acquaintance of Doris's. It was an honour to have her with me. I didn't tell anyone as I thought they might think I was pretending, as she was such a famous medium.

Funnily enough my mum got a message from her from platform when she was alive. It stated that a daughter of my mum's would be on stage and would be very well known for her work!

I did however when I got back ask Doris to bring her name and her father's name into my student's circle. I felt I needed her to bring that in to convince me that it was her. I asked them to state the first name that came into their head sure enough the names were said.

I don't hear from Doris a lot now, I believe that she was there to give me a leg up! The last time I saw her silhouette was at Stansted Hall, when I had to do my first evening platform in front of some of the world's most talented mediums. Soon as I knew that she was there I was laughing!
I do feel her now and then, but I'm sure she is helping and teaching other developing mediums. God Bless you Doris.

In November 2004, apart from my family,( who now included always insistently, my mum' mum!) I predominantly worked with two people. The monk, whom in a meditation had told me that his name was Julius,. The Native American still remained nameless. I had been told by a medium on platform weeks earlier whether I knew White Hawk, but I had said no.
This was about to change though. In a meditation at Stansted Hall with Tony Stockwell, we had to connect with our guides. Straight away I saw the Native American, His voice boomed, "I am Khanoonka, Ankala, I am white Hawk, I was your father." When I came round after an amazing meditation my friend Faye who was sitting next to me confirmed everything I had just seen in my vision.

Ankala means 'young daughter'. I didn't know this. Since this meditation I have been given the name White Hawk on four separate occasions by different mediums.

So my family, Julius and Khan are my darlings, my helpers.

All of my experiences of the links and teachings of my guides and other spiritual happenings can be seen under 'Experiences', some very powerful stuff in there, I can tell you!