Category : MY STORY
YOU ARE TO WRITE WHAT YOU HAVE DREAMT
The Sunday after my bumble bee episode, I accumulated another tool to add to my spiritual itinerary. It seemed that in the last week the heavens were initiating everything they could to get me back in a positive mind space and strength to fight.
YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE
My friend randomly said, ‘I don’t know why, but you need to watch this.
Now I had read the book and worked on the exercises contained within it. This book is priceless, if you find yourself in the wilderness, lost and desperate get this book or watch the DVD. This book gives you the compass, map and route to find your way home. When I watched the video, I cried through most of it listening to the individual stories of people’s struggles and triumphs. It gave me another kick up the backside in wanting to get back on track mentally and spiritually.
YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE by LOUISE HAY is a ‘must have’ to adorn your book shelf. It is like my personal bible.
There are such beautiful illustrations in the book and the affirmations and guidance in finding a happier, more contented you, are simply priceless. I recommend getting the book rather than downloading it as the visual quality of each page can’t be missed!
So now I was ‘working it’ thinking about my life, changing all the negativity into positivity. Even when the pain became unbearable I would imagine me walking through the Crystal Palace trying to distance myself from my mutinous body. But believe me it was very difficult in the early days. I had a night just after that Sunday where my reality hit and I felt desolate yet again.
Sometimes in the dark hours your mind works overtime and mine was working like a jet fuelled engine. I cried out and said to whoever wanted to listen ‘I get it, but why? You need to deliver something as I am not going to survive with only stupid little signs, HELP ME!’ I was sobbing like a baby, I just wanted a lifeline, a reason for being.
Now I know I have already put this story of my dream in a different blog but it is SO incredible I will mention it again.
The following morning after shouting the odds to up above I was awoken by my friend banging my door with the hoover. I was so frustrated as I was in the middle of the most magnificent dream. There were tears flooding down my face and my heart was beating out of my chest, I was literally breathless. The dream was euphoric, the colours, feelings and visions held such a vibrancy I could do nothing but yearn to be back in it’s magnificence. It was 7.30 so I though I would get a cup of tea and see my friend before she left for work. Well that wasn’t going to happen!
A voice that I recognised as I can only describe as angel vibration mixed with Julianus said , ‘GO BACK TO SLEEP!’
Now, because the spirit world contact us a lot in our dreams I have taken time to study dream phenomena. Incidentally I have this fab dream analysis site, it is spot on when I look up what my dream means. When our loved ones and guides can’t reach us in the waking hours they will blend with us during dream state where they can send information without our consciousness interfering and also give us a cuddle! That is why they cope so well as they can be with us whenever they like, but unfortunately for us we can’t, unless we meditate of course..
Here’s a link to the dream site Dream analysis
I have always had intense dreams but I really started to take it seriously when I started to have prophetic dreams. The one of hundreds that comes to mind was when I dreamt that I was standing on a beach in New Orleans, it was sunny and glorious but then this huge wave washed over me and I was thrashed around until I found myself in this main high street with dead bodies and sharks floating around me. I looked up and saw a shop sign and it had ‘Katrina’s’ written on it.
A few weeks later hurricane Katrina smashed through New Orleans and when I saw a picture of the high St in New Orleans I was nearly sick. I had seen it coming but who would have listened to me and what could I have changed? I have asked this of Julianus, he said, ‘You are not there to warn, you are there just listening to the highest vibrations that have shaken through the Universe and of those to come.’
So I now mention it on social media, the dream I have, just to give credit to prophetic dreaming, very frustrating. I even dream of celebrities, I remember a warning one with Gary Barlow, he was in a bank looking very stressed. I sent him a message on twitter! (Yes I did feel like a nutter!) About a fortnight later he was under investigation for tax evasion. I saw the riots in the UK quite soon before they erupted in our towns and cities, I put it on Facebook and lots of people acknowledged it, which was good. If it’s to do with a murder though, then I always send what I have to the investigation team, no doubt they chuck it in the bin, but I have done my bit..
I wish we were more like America and psychics were used as help on investigations, as I have had so much information before that came out correct when the perpetrator was eventually caught.
Any way back to my dream, my life changer.
I know that usually we only dream in seconds, but I went back to sleep and awoke 5 hours later on conclusion of the dream. I was like a woman possessed, it was like returning from oblivion. The same voice then said, ‘You shall write what you have dreamt’
Now I have to take you back a few years, I was getting a reading from a medium called Bill, funnily enough at St Cecilia’s spiritualist church in Rayleigh, Essex. (Remember St Cecilia’s, my home in Rome?)
It was just after I had seen the three men in the window at my first mediumship evening, after I was retired from the police service in 2003.
Bill said to me, ‘You are going to be an important spiritual teacher and reach thousands of people. You will also write and this will reach millions.’
I smiled and said thank you, but writing? Nah. Don’t get me wrong I have always loved creative writing and have always kept a soul journal, I wrote permanently in my old job, detailed descriptive hundred page statements from rape victims and murder victim families, but books and stuff? I didn’t think I had it in me.
Recently a consultant from America asked me, ‘What was the inspiration for your book?’ I had to be honest, ‘Erm, a dream? I had no inspiration what so ever!’
So back to waking up, still crying from the emotion of the dream, I walked into the lounge and typed the first five chapters then and there. The words spilled from me like a geyser, exploding out on the white blank document before me.
Even the character names were given to me in a second. None of it came from my imagination. I later googled the names out of curiosity. I was shocked when I saw that the names and descriptions of the characters in the book were the exact people described in the Old Testament, it was surreal.
I was completely obsessed with the story, it was so epic and so unbelievably reflective of our planet that I was humbled as I wrote. I then learned as I was given more and more information that it was not only going to become a book it was to be a trilogy. I even started getting visions of the actors that would play the characters! (Gerard Butler, Archangel Michael, lol)
Now and then the human part of me whispered my concerns and fears, ‘This will never be published, agents will laugh at your effort, one in a million chance, blah blah blah.’ The lion part of the soul, is what Julianus calls it.
But then the spiritual part of me was screaming, ‘This has been channelled from the Heavens, you are their messenger, this is what they want you to tell humankind. To educate them through fiction.’ That was the mouse talking. More about the mouse and the lion another time!
LIFE PATH CHANGE
My life path from that single dream had been changed in a dramatic way. I now had something to focus on, something to work on during the lonely hours and a dream of being a published writer of this type of fiction. I couldn’t reach the masses from the stages any longer, but I possibly could through my words. I was already doing that through articles in magazines but certainly not on an epic scale such as a trilogy!
It was an epiphany. It hit me like a bolt of lightening, as I then remembered that reading from St Cecilia’s. ‘You shall write for millions’ this spurred me on and in a few months the first book was finished.
If you have read my other blog entry from ages ago, you will know that I have been provided with an unusual mentor! I was told by Julianus that Elizabeth Bowen was helping me. I googled her, she was a Victorian supernatural fiction writer!
The reason why I have been told to do this in fiction is because Julianus explained that it would reach more people. It would be a fictional story but laced with angelic and celestial fact throughout the plot. Genuis!
So the plot involving forbidden love, action, death, evil, love and all things juicy has an important message laced within it. We need a HUGE wake up call, we have to realise that as a species we are killing ourselves and our planet and things have to change.
As I write this I am getting goose bumps, as the magic of the book seriously transports you. I furtively asked one of my best friends mum, Lin to read it and critique it. I knew I would get honesty and harsh critique if I deserved it.
She had read the first few chapters and I approached her like I was facing a headmistress with my homework.
‘Did you like it then Lin?’ I asked holding my breath.
She turned around and burst into tears and was speechless!
I think that’s a yes then! lol.
So now I had to reinvent myself as a creditable writer. I cannot tell you the times I have re read and re written the first book.
The other thing I had niggling me was how was I going to get it out there, how was I to get an agent?
Back in November last year, the 7th to be precise, I remembered that most writers with a media presence are always asked by agents if they have a column. Apparently for some reason its important. Well I had nothing like that. I had been out of the loop for four years, I was starting to panic.
I sent a silent thought up to Archangel Gabriel and said, ‘You know my concerns, I need some help please if you want your message to get out.‘ It didn’t occur to me that I had sent this SOS up on a very spiritually numbered day, 7 11.
THE ANGELS DELIVER
The following morning I woke up in pain but planned to start researching agents to approach. Then I sighed and had one of those Lion moments, ‘You have no chance, you are wasting your time and limited energy,’ said the roaring beast. Then my phone beeped and I sat reading in complete shock what had just been sent to me.
I was asked to be the columnist in Fate and Fortune as the Psychic Detective! How the hell had that happened? I had not been working for years, but here it was in black and white. Tears of gratitude coursed down my face as I raised my eyes to the sky and choked ‘Wow you work fast! Thank you‘ to Archangel Gabriel. To be asked was an honour and obviously I adore my subject matter, investigating mysteries!
They were helping me, they had heard me, I was going to get this book out, I just knew it.
So in your darkest times, especially battling chronic illness, whether you believe in angels or not ask them for help, what’s the worst that can happen?
So back to 2014, as I proceeded along my boot camp schedule, writing frenzied chapters and trying to cope, I realised one day that I had committed to a spiritual retreat in Kent, I sank into a dreaded blackness. How the hell was I going to do it or get out of it? It had been honoured and sold out for a year, I desperately didn’t want to let the students down, but I was far too ill.
I also met someone that little did I know was going to walk my path as my Earth Angel.
Footnote: I apologise for accidentally sending this out before I had edited it. As you would have seen, I am writing on a brain fog day, so for me it’s harder than most to write! xx